Elaine's Blog

Preparing for exams

2006-03-27T10:13:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was one of my most unlucky day. Met a freak who purposely wanted girls to touch him in the middle of street. A pervert! sighs... Been busy with my year end exams preparations. Super stressed! Have not finished memorising all my stuff... Life is so tough... Studies even tougher... Ahaha... I guess I am just gonna complain non stop.

Back to 2005

2006-02-24T02:01:00.000-08:00

My mind has been refreshing all the past events that I have gone through in year 2005. And I can safely conclude that 2005 is a rocky and sad year for me. Been through alot of personal and political struggles as well as met lots of nasty people. However, looking at the bright side, I have learnt and grew alot mentally and emotionally after going through all the obstacles. I just hope that I have change my attitude for the better.Sometimes I really wish that I could have been more forgiving and would not loose a friend. It was just a spur of moment that I do not wish to keep our friendship. I was blinded by my anger and sadness...

Feeling tired

2006-02-17T02:01:00.000-08:00

With the past few weeks of intensive studying, I am totally worn-out. I have only 2 more weeks left to prepare for my mock exams. And I am left with 2 more subjects untouched. How am I gonna make it??? This is a real stressful period. I am no longer able to memorise and cramp all the information in my head as much as I did when I was taking my diploma. Feeling super anxious and stressed, yet getting more and more worn-out. I guess the worn-out effect would be inefficiency and unproductive. *sob sob*

2006-02-12T06:14:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *stressed*

I have been digging into my books these few weeks. Study and study all day long... (-_-)Zzz Mock exams are coming round the corner. Really afraid that I might not be able to do well. I am all stressed up!

Change Blog Skin Again

2006-02-10T13:00:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *blessed*

I find this little girl so cute and adorable! Hee! Hee! Oh well! Its been a while since my last entry. And yeah! I have changed my blog skin. After all the health worries and haunted memories of the past, I am enjoying my calm moments now. Currently busy preparing for my mock exams coming up next month. I am feeling so much more happier now. Hope I have a fruitful and smooth 2006.

Give up

2005-12-14T09:24:00.000-08:00

Elaine is *giving up*

Sometimes I really do not understand what is he thinking or maybe its because I do not wish to understand. I never knew a person whom is so selfish and thinks so highly of himself. Why he never learns from past experiences and mistakes? Don't he ever understand why people start distancing away from him? Haiz... I guess thats the main reason why we can never ever get along... Well, I just hope he will change for the better and treasure those people around him even though I do not wish to see or hear from him again... I believe its for the better and I hope he will learn how to understand my situation too...

Bowling

2005-11-29T05:48:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *happy*

Weeeee!!! Managed to wake up early today and join my cousins for a bowling game. The session was fun! Its been so long since I met up with them for bowling. After that we went West Mall to have our lunch together. Was thinking of going shopping for clothes with Shanny after the lunch, however I felt lazy and sleepy all of a sudden and decided to return home instead. Sigh... Had a 3 hours of afternoon nap! Ahahaha! And visited the gym in the evening. Hehe! But I have not touch my books yet! Hmmm... Oh well, guess I have to either start digging into my books tonight or tomorrow...

Good Girl

2005-11-28T06:25:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *good girl*

Today I am a super good girl you know... hehe.. Really!! Its true! I washed all the curtains in my living room and my own room. In addition, I cleaned all the window grills too. See! I am a good girl right? Ahahaha! Took my whole afternoon on housework today and visited the gym in the evening. Feeling so tired but had a great sense of satisfaction. However, I have not dig in to my books yet. Sighs... But I have no mood to study today though. Ok.. I confess! I am a lazy girl. I better start fulfilling my 2006 resolution.

Unwell again

2005-11-27T04:55:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *unwell again*

Sighs... That stomach flu attacks me again, making me feel so weak and tired. And that pain in my stomach really irritates and disturb my sleep. So sickening! *sob sob* I have just prepared a short-term study schedule for myself. See! I am a good girl! Ahahaha! I must uphold my 'Study Hard and Harder!' pledge.

Economics Test

2005-11-24T08:45:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *sick and sad *

I blew my Economics test today. So sad!! Out of 3 questions I knew how to answer 2. Thought that I could score at least for 2 questions but my lack of confidence in myself made matters worst. In fact, I answered the second question correctly but I changed my answer at the last minute, thinking that my initial answer was too shallow. SHIT! And I blew it away! My initial answer was the right one. So sad! *sob sob*

The flu bug has invaded me! Having this stuffy nose and sore throat for the past 4 days. But I am more or less feeling much better since today. I am really so disappointed with myself. I studied real hard for this Economics paper with my heavy head and stuffed nose, but I did not do well for it at all. That probably signals that I must put in double or even triple effort then usual. Sad! Sad! Sad! Sad! Sad!

Love Your Enemy

2005-11-20T06:35:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *naughty girl*

Why naughty? Because I have not prepare for my Economics test yet... Feeling very lazy and down... Rather spend my time cheering myself up.
To me,
Studying = Boring + Bad mood

Ahahaha But
Studying = Good grades
This year had been a tough one for me... Met lots of mean people and gone through many ups and downs. To learn to forgive and forget as well as to love your enemies is a tough job! But I will try practicing it in all my life. ok... thats for all tonight. tata

Fulfill My New Resolution

2005-11-18T05:44:00.001-08:00

Elaine is feeling *lazy*

Sighs... Have not been fulfilling my new resolution "Study hard and harder everyday" Have been focusing on entertainment and workout instead. sighs sighs sighs... There is an Economics test coming up next week and I am so unprepared. Cannot carry on like this any longer. Ring! Ring! Ring! Elaine wake up! wake up! wake up! Must fulfill my pledge! Cannot give up.

I have not finished with my Da4 Chang3 Jin1 yet. I am so slow! The lead actor in the show is so charming! That might explain why am I taking so long to finish the show. Must slowly watch and enjoy! My parents and cousin all chasing me to quickly finish up. Otherwise, they have to wait even longer for their turn to watch. Ahahaha! I am so evil! Will take my time to watch even longer because I have to concentrate on my studies instead. You guys can slowly wait. Hehe! No la! Just joking. Will try to finish it up as soon as possible.

By the way, I just borrowed this Cantonese serial. Got my favourite actor!! Though he is quite old already, his looks and charisma, charms many many of us. Can't wait to watch it, but must finish Da4 Chang3 Jin1 first. Guess I am feeling better now... Hopefully I will be able to get over everything. Hmmm... I must believe I will! Hehe! ok... thats all for today. Take care.

Better

2005-11-17T05:31:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *tired*

Been visiting gym these few days... try to workout and relieve stress. I heard from a friend that working out would help us lighten our mood. Haiz... but its so tiring.. I guess this is the reason why it would lighten our mood, we exercise until no energy to think of unhappy thoughts. Ahaha...

Hopefully Back to Normal

2005-11-16T08:17:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *disappointed*

I have learnt a big lesson in my life, and that is never to be deceived by looks! Some people can look honest and trustworthy but thats not the case... I had trusted this person but he betrayed me time after time. He never ever consider how others felt nor gives that little respect. Haiz... Although I am trying very hard to forgive and forget, I could no longer trust him... I guess time is the only way to heal...

Study hard

2005-11-07T08:49:00.000-08:00

Elaine is feeling *studious*

Ahahah... do you believe? Hmmm... My 2006 resolution will be study hard and harder everyday. And I am practicing it now... hehe... aiyo.. kk... I am not really hardworking... but at least I am trying very hard to fulfil my pledge.

I am currently addicted to this serial called Da4 Chang3 Jin1. I am watching the repeated telecast. Had missed the actual broadcast. Now I am so super sianz... Realised that my studies are so much lag behind... Everyday eat, sleep, watch tv and go out... Haiz... Cannot be like this anymore... Must work harder... I want to strive for the 'A's. Ahahaha... Hopeflly its not just a dream... hehe...

Stubborn

2005-10-26T03:51:00.000-07:00

Elaine is feeling *quandary*

I have been feeling real down for the past few weeks... I knew that being happy or otherwise all lie in my mind. I know that things might not or totally not work in the way that I hope it turns out to be but its really hard for me to forget and forgo everything. No matter how disappointed and sad this road might be, theres this little hope in me that I am always waiting for. I know it sounds stupid but I just could not disregard everything in a flash of time. Its really so tiring...

Forget...

2005-10-25T07:54:00.000-07:00

Elaine is feeling *disappointed*

I want to forget! I want to forget! I want to forgetttttt!!!!! I am sick and tired of everything... I really wish I could forget... But why I never succeed? Why can't I let go of everything? Why am I so useless? I really feel so tired...

Tired...

2005-10-16T06:29:00.000-07:00

Elaine is feeling *tired*

As described above, YES! I am feeling tired! Really tired! But I can never ever have a good rest! I over estimated myself. All the unnecessary problems are created by my over confidence, estimation and PRIDE! I hate myself so much! Why can't I just wipe it off and forget everything totally?

Hopefully Better...

2005-10-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

Elaine feeling *hopefully better*

Hi! Hi! Recently I am hooked with this Chinese Serial "The Prince Who Turns into a Frog". I personally feel that its a sweet and cute show. Very interesting and entertaining. Meeeee LOVE it! Hee Hee!

This Saturday have to go back office to work. Hmmm... kind of looking forward to it but getting a little lazy too... (^_^") Ahahaha... Tomorrow have to go school... feeling alittle draggy and up to now I still could not solve my Maths 1 question... haiz... I am really lousy at Mathematics, have no talent in it at all... *sob sob*

Listen to Your Heart?

2005-10-06T06:18:00.000-07:00

Elaine is feeling *depressed*

There are lots of things that I'm unsure whether to follow our heart, dreams and desire OR rather logicality and rationality. I wish to give up! But my heart and mind does not allow me to be in level-headedness. I have no idea what should I do. 'Pride' always play a vital role. I am feeling so tired. Although my rationality keeps on reminding and persuading me to give up, my heart and mind never tells me so... I always hear that we should follow our heart but I know by doing so my misery would probably never end.

What Comes First?

2005-10-03T11:02:00.000-07:00

Elaine is feeling *helpless*

Sometimes I felt so helpless... I have totally no idea what I should do or react to certain situations which I have long forseen them. 'Pride' has been playing a vital role in my life ever since all the terrible nightmares that I have experienced early this year. I seem not to be able to overcome it. Yes! I do understand that we should have pride in whatever we do and truely understands that I should learn how to overcome my strong sense of 'pride' in different situations. However, I just can't forgo or even reducing it to the minimum. It has become part of my self-esteem or dignity to carry on with life and getting some self-respect. 'Pride' has became my shield but it has also ruin part of my life...

Office Sweet Office

2005-08-13T13:42:00.000-07:00

Elaine is feeling *Sentimental*

Guess what?? I am back to work. *OFFICE SWEET OFFICE* Haha! I really miss my desk, my computer, my chair and the environment. kk... I know you all are going to scream at me "ARE YOU SURE??" But my answer is "YES!" I really miss my office and colleagues very much. And I feel so happy and glad to be back! I felt a sense of belonging. After all I have spend about a year or more here.

The moment I step into the office, I met Mahmooda, my great friend. I really miss her so much, especially those times when I pop by her office to collect mails. Hmmm... I felt a sense of accomplishment this morning as I managed to clear 120 emails!!! Yeah!

I will be poping by my office next Wednesday again for events. Looking forward so much for the day to come. Hee! Hee! (^_^)

Back again

2005-08-04T09:10:00.000-07:00

Current mood *unsure*

Hi Hi! I'm back with my blogging craze again. Haha! I guess I must have been influenced by one of my Sentosa ex-colleagues whom blogs very often at her friendster blog. Hee! Hee!

I am back to school again. Yeah! Kind of feeling weird on the first day of my lesson. But am adapting to the new environment quickly. Tomorrow will be a full day lesson haiz... hope I will not fall asleep in class... Oopps.. hee hee! Kk... thats for tonight... tata! (^_^)

New Blog, New Layout and New Life

2005-05-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

Current mood *Better*

Hi! Hi! Elaine is back!! Have been feeling down for the past few weeks. But am much better now. Manage to put everything to the past and look forward. Decided to change my blog and its layout. How? Is it nice? Comment leh! Hee! Hee! (^_^)

I joined the recent JP Morgan Run with my colleagues. It was a great experience. Hmmm... but my timing was terrible and embarassing... Took 1 hour to finish the whole course as my friend sprained her ankle... (^_^") Hmmm... that sums up for today... tata!